Getting started...

Hello there!  My name is Megan, I am 32, a wife to an amazing husband, mother to twins, a 3rd grade teacher, and FAT!  There, I had to say it and get it out there.  I AM FAT!  I have been fat most of my life, and have hated being fat, but have never done anything about it, until NOW! I am currently the heaviest I've ever been, weighing in at a whopping 294 pounds.  Yikes, I've never admitted my weight to anyone, not even my dear husband, but I have to get it out there, be honest, or I will never do anything about it!

For as long as I can remember, I always said, "Oh I will start that running plan/diet/exercise plan/etc tomorrow." Well TODAY is that tomorrow.  I'm so tired of hiding my weight behind ugly clothes...I mean let's face it, the skinnier you are, the more options you have for clothing, and I love clothes!  I love to shop, but even my weight has taken the joy out of that because nothing fits well when you are fat.  There is always something sticking out, or too tight in areas, and so on.  So I'm done being the way I am.  I need to get healthy for me, I need to get healthy for my twinnies, and I need to get healthy for my husband so we can grow old together like we've always planned.  I waited a long time to find the right guy, and I'm not going to lose him because of my health.  I don't want this weight to tie me down, keep me away from, or most importantly, keep me from being truly happy.  I am a happy person, but that's because I'm an excellent hider/liar.  I don't like to go anywhere alone, as I feel I am judged and the world is looking at me as a "fat girl, no wonder she's alone...she's FAT!"  So enough for the excuses, enough for the judgements (most that are in my head), and enough already of the weight!   I am starting the Couch to 5K program today.  I know that it won't be easy, and that I probably will never love to run, but dammit, I'm going to do it!  I look at those around me who are getting skinny, making better choices, and losing the weight and always wish that was me...well here I go!  That WILL be me!  I know it won't happen over night, I know it won't be a quick fix, but I also know that I can do it.

So here's what I need from you, whoever you are, that is reading this.  I need some encouragement, I need accountability, and most of all I need your support.  I know this is going to be a tough, and sometimes horrible road ahead of me, but I'm up for it.  Game ON!  I plan to lose 150 pounds total, but first I'm aiming for 75 this year.  So by the time 2013 rings in, I will be at least 75 pounds down.   That may sound like a HUGE goal, but come on, they do it on Biggest Loser and I want to be a BIG LOSER!!

So here I go....starting weight...294 pounds.